Safety

Safety

I look up to the moon
The light clears my mind free
The two parts of me collide
Burns together as I crouch in agony
I hold on to the breath
Until I release and watch the smoke fade away
I blink and a part of me fills
No reason, no blame
Just filling another spot that was broken
I move across the grass,
The water hitting my shoulders
Shaking the hair out of my face
And I begin to breathe
Is it possible to feel fine after the rain hits
Does the lightning see through this mask
Does the storm wash everything away
Throwing away the burdens
That causes my shoulders to slump
Tearing off the pain
That burns my fingers as I grip harder
On what life I manage
I always hide when I’m surrounded
Like an animal stuck in a trap
I duck my head, grin, smile and laugh
Pretend like this all doesn’t freak me out
But here, when the wind slashes around me
Where the rain strikes at me like the notes in my head
Where the grass and the trees tell me to grow
I press my hands and arms around a tree
I feel safe there, here and now
This is the only place I feel safety
Where nature takes hold of my life
And doesn’t let go.

~Lykaios