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Apart I cannot ask “do you miss me?” of course he does. But he'll never say it I cannot say “please stop flirting with her” since it's not my place anymore I cannot call myself his girl because he doesn't call me it himself I cannot say “I love you” because he won't return it I cannot ask to see him, although it's the one thing I want its the last thing he can stand I cannot tell him how much this hurts me Because it hurts him just the same -Eleanor

Alright willing yourself to fall asleep When you know that there is no one beside you That's the hardest Helping him move out It was like I was tearing down pieces of my heart Like love notes off a mirror And I knew I know That I have to be strong But all I keep thinking is how empty I feel When his arms aren't around me How much I ache inside when I remember that he won't say “I love you” Or call me his “pretty girl” again because we're not strong enough apart So he packed his bags and we separated our hearts But there are so many things I still love about him Like the first time I finally went with him to the gym How his eyes lit up when he first saw me When he talked about turning he and I into "we" How he makes a difference when he walks into a room How his smile looks like a crescent moon How when his arms wrapped around me I felt completely safe The crook of his arm and his neck. My safe pla...

Not Anymore Did you know that when you cry for so long, your mind shuts down the sensory part of your brain that allows you to feel emotional pain? It's its last stand. Past reasoning, comfort, logic and hope.  Your own body shuts you down. And you can't feel anything. I feel small bursts of sorrow Or joy I can laugh at things Or tears can spring to my eyes and I can be genuinely glad to see my friends and my family But Robotic movements Like knowing how to flip a switch but it isn’t true I can't really feel anything Unless memories flood like water break the flood gates Remember that he can never write those three words to you again so empty Like a bird shell watch your step or you'll crush me my wings were broken when He took away my Angel what scares me is that I’ve lived most of my life like this this lie Slender lines showing the cracks between puzzle pieces Keep it together ...