Alright

Alright

willing yourself to fall asleep

When you know that there is no one beside you

That's the hardest

Helping him move out

It was like I was tearing down pieces of my heart

Like love notes off a mirror

And I knew

I know

That I have to be strong

But all I keep thinking is how empty I feel

When his arms aren't around me

How much I ache inside when I remember that he won't say

“I love you”

Or call me his “pretty girl”
again

because we're not strong enough apart

So he packed his bags

and we separated our hearts

But there are so many things I still love about him
Like the first time I finally went with him to the gym

How his eyes lit up when he first saw me
When he talked about turning he and I into "we"

How he makes a difference when he walks into a room

How his smile looks like a crescent moon

How when his arms wrapped around me I felt completely safe

The crook of his arm and his neck. My safe place

I love the way he stands, saunters around because he's sure

How he made me feel like I was nothing like the cracks in the mirror

Because he loved me for my insides and not my past
Every moment I spent with him, he made sure was a blast

I love how his laugh makes me smile
How his love could walk a thousand miles

How his hands wrapped around my own
I loved the way his heart of gold shone

I love the way he looks at me
Like I was the only one he could see

The way he held me at night
I loved the way he reacted at the first bite

I love how he always seemed to know
The truth whether or not I was willing to show

Just by the way I was breathing
How I could hear his heart beating

How he listened to my stories
And soothed all of my worries

And noted things that I never knew he had paid attention to
The way he first said "I love you"

I loved that when we went out at night
Experiencing memories, enjoying the sights

I stared over at the city lights caught up in my dreams

As he stared up at the stars caught up in possibilities

It was like God finally gave me an Angel

And before I muttered out "Mine" for the millionth time

He took him away for what seems like forever

But dreams and possibilities
Tend to create hope

Everything finds a way.

and although I'm afraid of going to sleep

waking up without him by my side

I know

I think I know

Everything will be alright.

-Eleanor