Crush Euphoria

Crush Euphoria

All I did was open my door

Answer the phone

Watch the words scroll down the page

I listened and I laughed

I read and I was surprised

Damn

My heart hurts

It clenches down

Threatening to burst

His smile follows

And all I can do is hide

Behind my scarf

Blue eyes

What is this

Shit

God there is light

Light from my eyes

And fingertips

Here is a smile

I'm rolling off a natural high

Better than a mountain

I fell asleep smiling

Woke up the same

That's not normal

Not for me

I'm never there

Never been here before

I can find imperfections in perfection

I could get disappointed from a winner

I can lose hope in the best

Not sure why

Or how about how?

But that's not coming up

Flawed

But all I see is him

Making me feel

Strange and wonderful

I know I should be cautious

But I'm just not

When I'm with him
It's too easy
To just fall

Biology and chemistry

Tells me that it's natural

Body feels numb

History and psychology

Tells me that it's normal

But what the hell

Dammit

Can't get these out of my head

Poems with words

I'm not good

Writing poetry with meaning

That's truer than a sunset

I feel it

But for once

Can't write it down

He's like the worst

Writers block

In the world

Wasn't planning this

Heart palpitations

Quaking hands

Wasn't looking for it

Wasn't ready for it

Not sure what 'it' is

But nothing beats it

The feeling

This euphoria

-Ella Hastings

This is the best version. Which is sad.