I think

I think

I think he would have held my hand

Walked with me around the park so I wouldn't get lost

I think he would have leaned down and kissed the top of my head

Like those soft black and white photographs you see on Hallmark cards

I think he would teased me and pulled my hair

And he would have made me cry

I think he'd try to make me laugh

And he'd succeed like his Dad

I think I'd yell his name through the house

He'd heavily sigh like little boys with so much to do

I think he'd play baseball and I'd watch

Since I'm horrible at sports

I think that when we went out

He'd be sweet and play with me

I think maybe he'd ignore me

Ignore me pulling on his sleeves

I think he'd get to that age

That when I followed him around on the playground

He'd tell me to go away

I think he'd say sorry afterward

I think that when I went to his high school

I'd be known as his little sister

And that would be really annoying

But I think he'd go to every play, always with a standing ovation

I think that when I had my first date

He'd check to make sure the boy was OK just for me

I think that when I was first heartbroken

He'd confront the guy at school

I think he would go to a great college

Somewhere cold, where he has to wear a leather jacket

A dark brown almost black one

The one I've always imagined him wearing

I think that when I was accepted into college

He'd applaud dramatically on the couch and laugh

I think during the holidays he'd come home

And Mom would start crying

I think that if he was here now

He'd come into my room and pull me out

I think he'd want to know how college is going

And joke about how we're growing up

I think he'd be really good at hugs

And he'd have a wonderful singing voice

I think he'd learn to say the right thing to make me smile

And that he'd be the other side of the coin

Brown eyed brunette, takes after Mom

Green eyed blonde, takes after Dad

I think he'd be wonderful, annoying and protective

I think he would love me and I him

I think these things

But I do not know

I'd like to think I'm right though

I'd like to think

-Ella

Merry Christmas Julian