Realizing

Realizing

I think it hit me

When I realized

That I wanted to have my hand on his shoulder

My head nuzzled into his arm

My arms around him

I think I recognized it

When I thought

How wonderful it would be if our fingers interlocked

If he leaned down to kiss me

Or randomly hug me out of nowhere

I think I thought it

When I opened my eyes

And I really looked at him

Looking at me

How perfectly happy he looks

I think I understood

When I imagined

Seeing him smile because of something I did

Hearing that laugh

His eyes hiding behind his arm

I think I got it

Before I started writing this

That if he was around

I would be happy

Because I wanted him here

-Ella